I know this is often said for many different circumstances, however I do believe God intervened in my life this week.
Two weeks ago my mother in law was hospitalized with pneumonia and sepsis (staph in the blood). She is doing much better, however has to stay in the hospital for 4 weeks on an IV antibiotic regiment. Those who know me know that my mother in law is instrumental in my life. She is a widow and lives very close to us.. her whole life is her grandchildren. She is always available to keep our kids and has often dropped everything to help or ran over in the middle of the night when an ER visit for someone in our household was warranted. She is amazing, but with her in the hospital she has been unavailable.
I went back to work 5 weeks ago from having a baby and my hysterectomy and this week I was suppose to travel for 3 days. I had anxiety about leaving the baby for the first time and how my husband was going to handle both kids. He has not had both kids at the same time for a long period of time, or overnight by himself. I wasn't sure how this was going to go. We discussed it over the weekend and I made plans for a friend to help out some and we prayed for the best. On Monday morning I woke up with a horrible pain in my chest. I felt like I was having a heart attack! I knew what it was and knew we had to pack the kids up and head to the ER. I have pancreatitis, and since being diagnosed with it during pregnancy, this was my second flare up. I knew it wasn't going to go away with out serious pain meds. It can also be fatal so an ultrasound has to be done to ensure that there is not a blockage or stone in the bile duct. Although the blood work came back really with really high enzyme levels, the ultrasound showed that what was possibly in there had passed. So outcome, pain meds and a clear liquid diet for a few days to allow the inflammation to go down, oh and no traveling. "What?" I asked. "No, traveling. Believe it or not riding in the car, bouncing around, could cause it to remain inflamed" the Doctor said. I was nervous about telling my boss this because it was the first I was suppose to travel since being back from maternity leave. I got a note from the ER specifying that order and talked with my boss. She understood the situation, because come to find out, she has it too. She was well aware of the pain it caused and just asked that I get better. I am truly blessed to have the job I do and work with amazing people.
So I rested and worked from home on Monday and the same on Tuesday. Then Tuesday night the baby started getting sick, and my husband starting getting sick. The baby was up all night with congestion and fussiness and had a hard time taking a bottle. We made it through the night, husband went to work, feeling bad, but still went and I tended to the baby. Wednesday she threw up all day, remained congested and had a hard time sleeping. I took her to the doctor where we found she was slightly dehydrated and badly congested. Meds, pedialyte and a lot of love were in order the rest of the day. When my husband got home he wasn't feeling well so he helped with Big B getting him dinner and in the bath while I held the baby. Several times he tried holding her so I could eat and she only wanted mommy. At one point she would not stop crying, I put her in the bath, calmed her down and then just held her until she went to sleep. It was another long night of up and down, nose suctioning and a lot of love.
I texted my boss at 10:00pm last night telling her that God works in mysterious ways. I now believe their was a higher power at work with the pancreatitis attack. I think he knew what was happening this week and needed to make sure that mommy was here to help take care of her sick family. He knows where we need to be at just the right time. I believe that everything happens for a reason. If I had not been sick myself on Monday, I would not be here to take care of baby J and Daddy D yesterday and today. Since my mom in law is unable to help us while she heals herself, I needed to be here. God is amazing and I love him. I truly am a mom with it all!
Thursday, May 19, 2011
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
Happy Mothers Day!
Mother's day is such an amazing day for me, especially this year, as I was blessed with my second and last child. I didn't think, or know if I would ever have these children. I struggled with infertility, as I have discussed before, and I am so blessed to have my two beautiful children. Because of them I get to celebrate this day with lots of amazingly beautiful women. I am so honored.
Now with all that said, we tend to expect some sort of gift for mothers day. Something that says the pain we beared while carrying you for 9 long months and laboring for 36 long hours before having an emergency c section, is remembered every year (as well as on their birthday)!I am sure all of you mothers have gotten some really great gifts, and some really not so great gifts, and honestly my husband is not always the best gift giver, however this year I received a gift certificate to Cheeburger Cheeburger! I love their German Chocolate Cake Shakes and trek over there once a week to get one. I really liked that he noticed that and got me something I could use!
My very first mothers day was initially a different story. I woke up and had no mothers day card or gift. Almost no acknowledgement of this first special day for me. He pretty much knew it too because he immediately got out of bed, still thinking I was asleep and left. He was gone for a long time. I stewed upset and thinking of all the mean things I could say to him when he returned. After a couple of hours had passed, he came home with my son and a card he gave me. What started out as the worst mothers day, turned out to be my most favorite and memorable. To this day the poem, inside the card that Daddy D wrote still makes me tear up. So I leave you with my first mother's day present and hope that all you mothers out there had a wonderful day celebrating your awesomeness!
For Mommy With Love
Written by Daddy Thoughts provided by Bryce James
If I could make the words to say,
I'd tell you Happy Mother's Day.
I can't make the words, so I'll just smile,
While daddy writes my thoughts awhile.
When I was in your tummy growing,
My daddy says people said, "Hey, you're showing!"
So when I grew bigger in there, I was too tight!
So I punched and kicked with all my might!
Daddy says I was Strong and cute,
And I was getting ready to drop down the chute!
But to my surprise there came fingers big and curly,
They pulled me out a whole month early!
So I gasped and cried my little lungs to the max,
So hard, daddy called it a pneumothorax!
I scared you by staying in the incubator,
And you couldn't even hold me until a few days later.
When you held me first, I heard you speaking,
So I looked and saw, "Hey mom, your eyes are leaking!"
But daddy said they were tears of joy,
'Cause I was her new baby boy!
I laugh and grin when you call me "doodlebug",
'Cause I know I get some kisses and hugs!
And those are what I love the most,
Here at home or on the Florida coast!
I travel so much in my new little life,
So full of tough and struggling strife.
But I know it will make me bigger and stronger,
So I can see all my grandmas and grandpas longer!
I get so much love from so many places,
So many kisses and hugs from so many faces!
But yours are the best and I can't get enough,
Even when I'm older and acting all tough!
I'll still need your kisses and hugs and protection,
From all of my future let downs and rejections!
Daddy will be there too, and that's great!
But mommy's are the best ones even when its late!
And when I play baseball as good as my cousin,
I'll be hitting home runs by the dozen!
I'll grow stronger like you and daddy are,
And I'll become a big shot baseball star,
Or how about a football or basketball player?
A doctor, a lawyer, or even city mayor?
What ever I'll be, I know it will show,
Wherever I am, and wherever I go.
That I have the best mommy in world ever,
And a dad whose forgetful but sometimes clever.
After all he wrote these words that rhyme,
From the things that I'm thinking all of the time!
So I'll thin k it again so dad Can convey,
All the love and hugs that I display.
And if I could make the words, I'd be glad to say,
"I love you Mommy, Happy Mothers Day!"
Now with all that said, we tend to expect some sort of gift for mothers day. Something that says the pain we beared while carrying you for 9 long months and laboring for 36 long hours before having an emergency c section, is remembered every year (as well as on their birthday)!I am sure all of you mothers have gotten some really great gifts, and some really not so great gifts, and honestly my husband is not always the best gift giver, however this year I received a gift certificate to Cheeburger Cheeburger! I love their German Chocolate Cake Shakes and trek over there once a week to get one. I really liked that he noticed that and got me something I could use!
My very first mothers day was initially a different story. I woke up and had no mothers day card or gift. Almost no acknowledgement of this first special day for me. He pretty much knew it too because he immediately got out of bed, still thinking I was asleep and left. He was gone for a long time. I stewed upset and thinking of all the mean things I could say to him when he returned. After a couple of hours had passed, he came home with my son and a card he gave me. What started out as the worst mothers day, turned out to be my most favorite and memorable. To this day the poem, inside the card that Daddy D wrote still makes me tear up. So I leave you with my first mother's day present and hope that all you mothers out there had a wonderful day celebrating your awesomeness!
For Mommy With Love
Written by Daddy Thoughts provided by Bryce James
If I could make the words to say,
I'd tell you Happy Mother's Day.
I can't make the words, so I'll just smile,
While daddy writes my thoughts awhile.
When I was in your tummy growing,
My daddy says people said, "Hey, you're showing!"
So when I grew bigger in there, I was too tight!
So I punched and kicked with all my might!
Daddy says I was Strong and cute,
And I was getting ready to drop down the chute!
But to my surprise there came fingers big and curly,
They pulled me out a whole month early!
So I gasped and cried my little lungs to the max,
So hard, daddy called it a pneumothorax!
I scared you by staying in the incubator,
And you couldn't even hold me until a few days later.
When you held me first, I heard you speaking,
So I looked and saw, "Hey mom, your eyes are leaking!"
But daddy said they were tears of joy,
'Cause I was her new baby boy!
I laugh and grin when you call me "doodlebug",
'Cause I know I get some kisses and hugs!
And those are what I love the most,
Here at home or on the Florida coast!
I travel so much in my new little life,
So full of tough and struggling strife.
But I know it will make me bigger and stronger,
So I can see all my grandmas and grandpas longer!
I get so much love from so many places,
So many kisses and hugs from so many faces!
But yours are the best and I can't get enough,
Even when I'm older and acting all tough!
I'll still need your kisses and hugs and protection,
From all of my future let downs and rejections!
Daddy will be there too, and that's great!
But mommy's are the best ones even when its late!
And when I play baseball as good as my cousin,
I'll be hitting home runs by the dozen!
I'll grow stronger like you and daddy are,
And I'll become a big shot baseball star,
Or how about a football or basketball player?
A doctor, a lawyer, or even city mayor?
What ever I'll be, I know it will show,
Wherever I am, and wherever I go.
That I have the best mommy in world ever,
And a dad whose forgetful but sometimes clever.
After all he wrote these words that rhyme,
From the things that I'm thinking all of the time!
So I'll thin k it again so dad Can convey,
All the love and hugs that I display.
And if I could make the words, I'd be glad to say,
"I love you Mommy, Happy Mothers Day!"
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
One Hot Mama!
Last April (2010) I had an abnormal pap smear, it turned out to be nothing to be concerned with, however my obgyn strongly encouraged me to get a hysterectomy, it was time.
When I was 16 years old I found out I had endometriosis. I have been struggling with this for many years, taking different medications and having several laparoscopies in hopes of controlling it. When I was 24 the doctor told me if I wanted to have kids I needed to start trying. I went home, talked to my soon to be husband at the time and made the decision that we would start trying. We tried naturally for several months with no luck. The doctors suggested fertility drugs. I took clomid for several months with no luck. We then decided to try IUI (Interuterine Insemination) we had two failed rounds and then success! Almost two years after we started trying we were expecting our first child! Big B was born on November 15, 2005. This day was very significant. He was due on my dads birthday December 11th, however came on November 15th, which is my moms birthday! It was also the first anniversary of my husbands dad's death. He had passed away November 15, 2004. He was 4 weeks early and had a really hard start at life, but he is now healthy and growing way to fast!
After our son was born we weren't sure we were going to have any more kids. I went back on medicine to control the endometriosis and ultimately had two more laparoscopies to have the scar tissue and endometriosis removed. I continued to have problems. We had talked about having more kids but it really never became a priority for us, and in fact had been talking at that time about being happy with one child. Then the news, hysterectomy... I wanted a hysterectomy, I knew I would feel so much better, however I could not have it without really trying for one more child. I felt very blessed to have my son, and if I had no more children, I would have excepted that as Gods will, however I could not have the hysterectomy without trying. I never wanted to wonder what if? So my husband and I immediately went to the fertility clinic. He and I agreed we would do four rounds of IUI, but if they didn't work, we weren't doing IVF. I would have the hysterectomy. On May 26, 2010 we started the process and on June 20, 2010, which happen to be my birthday and father's day, we had a positive pregnancy test! Two days later a blood test confirmed we were expecting! February 11, 2011 our miracle daughter Baby J was born! We are so blessed.
Six weeks later I had a full hysterectomy and gallbladder removal. Blessed beyond belief I am having to adjust to having a baby and menopause all at the same time! The hot flashes are insane. My husband is freezing and I am stripping in front of a box fan, it's crazy! This mom with it all is trying to balance work, motherhood, wife and life in between hormonal outbreaks and hot flashes! It's not easy, but know that it is a small price to pay to be healthy and have the ability to be the best mom and wife I can be!
When I was 16 years old I found out I had endometriosis. I have been struggling with this for many years, taking different medications and having several laparoscopies in hopes of controlling it. When I was 24 the doctor told me if I wanted to have kids I needed to start trying. I went home, talked to my soon to be husband at the time and made the decision that we would start trying. We tried naturally for several months with no luck. The doctors suggested fertility drugs. I took clomid for several months with no luck. We then decided to try IUI (Interuterine Insemination) we had two failed rounds and then success! Almost two years after we started trying we were expecting our first child! Big B was born on November 15, 2005. This day was very significant. He was due on my dads birthday December 11th, however came on November 15th, which is my moms birthday! It was also the first anniversary of my husbands dad's death. He had passed away November 15, 2004. He was 4 weeks early and had a really hard start at life, but he is now healthy and growing way to fast!
After our son was born we weren't sure we were going to have any more kids. I went back on medicine to control the endometriosis and ultimately had two more laparoscopies to have the scar tissue and endometriosis removed. I continued to have problems. We had talked about having more kids but it really never became a priority for us, and in fact had been talking at that time about being happy with one child. Then the news, hysterectomy... I wanted a hysterectomy, I knew I would feel so much better, however I could not have it without really trying for one more child. I felt very blessed to have my son, and if I had no more children, I would have excepted that as Gods will, however I could not have the hysterectomy without trying. I never wanted to wonder what if? So my husband and I immediately went to the fertility clinic. He and I agreed we would do four rounds of IUI, but if they didn't work, we weren't doing IVF. I would have the hysterectomy. On May 26, 2010 we started the process and on June 20, 2010, which happen to be my birthday and father's day, we had a positive pregnancy test! Two days later a blood test confirmed we were expecting! February 11, 2011 our miracle daughter Baby J was born! We are so blessed.
Six weeks later I had a full hysterectomy and gallbladder removal. Blessed beyond belief I am having to adjust to having a baby and menopause all at the same time! The hot flashes are insane. My husband is freezing and I am stripping in front of a box fan, it's crazy! This mom with it all is trying to balance work, motherhood, wife and life in between hormonal outbreaks and hot flashes! It's not easy, but know that it is a small price to pay to be healthy and have the ability to be the best mom and wife I can be!
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